Ask Allyson About Art & Life
Cannabis Mudra by Alex Grey

Using Cannabis

Dear Allyson, I've noticed how wildly popular cannabis is starting to become, and I was wondering what your thoughts are about the relationship that our society is forming with the plant. High potency strains and concentrates are readily available. I've noticed among many of my friends who use cannabis that it affects them in a negative way. I feel that THC levels in cannabis are being increased to an excessive level and this in turn is causing people to establish an unhealthy relationship with the pla...

Learning with Alex & Allyson

Hello Allyson, I am interested an art retreat at CoSM or a workshop with you and Alex. My first trip up to CoSM was for a lecture which I throughly enjoyed. I have been looking for a place like CoSM before even knowing about it. I wrote in journals about creating my own place with the same intentions of bridging and connecting spirituality and art and did not know that a place like that already existed. Leaving CoSM gave me such hope and fulfillment. When I got home, I looked up your visionary work...

Creative Liberty
Realms of the Unpronounceable

Perfectionism and Art

Dear Allyson, You were in my dream last night emphatically telling me "People aren't perfect and we can't make perfect art, and that's life! All we can do is what we can do, but we can do a lot!” I find that my habit of perfectionism and being overly critical of myself limits both the quality and quantity of my creative output. I'd love to hear your thoughts on perfectionism and art. Thank you and Alex for everything you do :) -Hans

A Worthy Project

Dear Allyson, I am an experienced artist with a desire to create from spirit. Now involved in Landmark Education in Seattle, I am taking a leadership program that supports class participants in creating a community project. My quest is to lead others in an art venture that honors the divine. How can I bring together a team to work with me on that aim? Thank you, Mariah

Allyson Grey painting Creative Liberty
Art by William Allan Ross

How Can I Help?

Dear Allyson, How can I help? I’m emailing you from Austin, Texas. Here, the Visionary Art scene is growing into a wonderful example of how transcending reality through community and art can bring about real beauty and hope for us. Had the opportunity last summer to take an extraordinary workshop with our friends in the band Tool, surrounded by images of the Sacred Mirrors. You were near my heart and I knew I would be called to CoSM again in the future. If I could help CoSM, it would bring me...

Self-Doubt Versus Creativity

Dear Allyson, Thank you for your time. I am a writer who hasn't written anything yet. I am a yoga teacher who has not done any formal training yet. I am a podcaster with nothing recorded yet. For 15 years, I lived an unbalanced and unhealthy life with too much booze and white powdery drugs and not enough self care, which has hindered my drive to bring ideas to fruition. Then, 3 years ago, at age 30, I was blessed with a daughter. Taking care of her and her mother and my step daughter b...

Chaos Order Islands
Jewel Net of Indra

Executing an Artistic Vision

Dear Allyson, Because of how our society is structured, it is very difficult to form and execute an artistic vision. Sometimes we find ourselves so distant from where we NEED to be that the opportunity to execute that vision seems impossible. Yet sometimes a vision can come to fruition through means unknown, unknowable, or not yet available to us. If I am a lowly worker at a factory, how on earth will I build an art and healing center in New Mexico? It seems like such an impossibility, and yet the u...

Identifying A Venue For Your Art

Dear Allyson, I recently finished a big drawing project and would like advice about venues to have an exhibition. The project is called BFF and it consists of 127 composite charcoal drawings, plus the 128 photos from which they are derived. The project began in 2007 while working as a forensic artist for the Suffolk County police in Long Island. I’m currently looking to show an exhibition of the entire series. I’m looking into venues in the Hudson Valley but I’m open to venues in NYC and beyond a...

One and Many
Spectral Diamond Pinstripes

Truth, Integrity and BPD

Hi Allyson What is your opinion on Borderline Personality Disorder? I was reading through some of your old answers, and you seem to take a harsh stance on honesty and integrity. Personally I believe those things are very important as well, though in my experiences inside and outside the system I have only become more confused. I see major repercussions due to dishonesty. Do you think mental illness is an excuse? Do you believe it is real? Do you believe in lying for a just cause? Do you believe there is...

Realms of the Mind & Body

Hi Allyson, Why do you think our mind enters a different universe while our bodies stay in the current one. If our body enters too does that mean our physical body dies Thank you, Molly

Chaos Order & Secret Writing #3

Feeling Inadequate Creatively

Dear Allyson,

Have you ever feel like you were artistically inadequate, and if so, how did you overcome this? Inspired by many artists and musicians, I compare myself to the work of others and beat myself up over not having done as much, or for not being detail oriented enough. That cycle of self sabotage usually leads to stagnant periods in my creative flow. To continue creating, I have to address this negative cycle, but somedays I get so discouraged. At those times, I can't even imagine picking...

Bruegel, 1980

Bruegel, by Allyson Grey, 1980
watercolor on paper, 30x22in.

Sustaining an Enduring Relationship

Dear Allyson,

My husband and I have been together for close to twenty years, we deeply love each other and are committed to being together. As we enter our midlife era, it has become more of a challenge to connect, having two young children and various other regular life stressors. We see our friends divorcing and can't help wonder if marriage is sustainable in today's world? I was deeply encouraged to read that you and your husband are committed to each other in a traditional way. Could you offer...

Starting My Art Journey

Dear Allyson,

On your podcast with Duncan Trussell, I was inspired to hear you speak about the path of an artist. I have been trying to get my artistic journey started with little success and have identified two problems. One is that I am just too busy right now to make art a priority. An upcoming job change will offer more time for artistic pursuits.

The second is that I am not quite sure where to start. I have zero technical skill or training and most of what I make is laborious and slo...

Trust or Betrayal

Dear Allyson,

I recently "ran away" from my partner of seven years, due to a terrible misunderstanding.

My partner and I, both 25 years old, have been together for seven years. We broke up once before. During that break-up, I had a sexual experience with another man, and thought nothing of it. When Raphael and I started dating again, I was afraid to tell him, so at first, I lied, but later regretted it and told the truth. He never quite trusted me again.

For years after, I cont...

Response from a Neighbor

Dear Allyson,

My husband Brad and I, as well as the other neighbors who came to the celebration with us yesterday, enjoyed ourselves very much. I mentioned to you that I was thinking about writing about CoSM in my weekly email to a group of local people, and thought maybe you enjoy reading the result:

"Last night, a few neighbors and us decided to go to a Celestial Equinox celebration at CoSM, which is less than a mile from our house, close to the New Hamburg train station. CoSM is a chu...

Do Visionary Art Managers Exist?

Dear Allyson (Hi Alex!),
I am a multidimensional artist.
I do performance art-

I do installation art-

I do visual art (visionary still life photography)-

and I run creative workshops-

I have established myself out here in Australia and I am wanting to start touring internationally and expand in many ways. I am a one man show and I am finding it very difficult to keep up with everything I have going on.

My question is.... is ther...

Surprise Birthday Tribute Video

Watch the surprise birthday tribute video created for Allyson Grey’s birthday at the March Full Moon gathering. Thanks goes to all who contributed and especially to T.J. Squires for putting it together.

A Non-Profit for Creative Children

Dear Allyson,

I’d like to dedicate myself to helping children by creating a non-profit for low income communities like the neighborhood where I myself grew up. If I had known at a young age that I could make a living from my artistic abilities and talents, that is what I would have done. Many artistic young people, like my childhood neighbors, have no clue this is reality or how to get there and it seems impossible to many. I’d like to start a non-profit to allow children to not only express their...


Dear Allyson

Since I graduated art school in Scotland, I've struggled to balance work & art. I have creative practice-streaks and have even gotten some art out into the world, But, for the past seven years I’ve been denying my creative self and feeling guilty.

This past summer I moved to Sweden with my wife and one year old son to be closer to nature and find the balance between I've craved. Surprisingly, despite having a beautiful house in the forest, more time with my wife, plenty of fre...

Realms of the Unpronounceable

Can I Tell You My Story?

Dear Allyson,

Can I tell you my story?


Past In Your Present

Hi Allyson!

It was so refreshing to speak to you at the at the Gratitude Gathering and to hear of someone who had a positive family background that was full of love. Like how you spoke of your parents, specifically you growing up in a family business, summer camping, that had such a positive influence all those girls. It is encouraging to know that you still have a positive familia relationship with your husband and daughter.

Personally I didn’t have the most understanding or supportive f...

Text Page Reversal

Birth with Joy

Employment & Healing

Dear Allyson,

At 24, I'm having a difficult time in my life. Out of work and living off of savings, I am having a hard time finding employment. However, I am currently living in an area where job openings are plentiful. I am limited in what I can do since I have no car and can’t afford one. Three young stepchildren count on my care. My spiritual, mental and emotional health was set on the back burner for awhile. Now, I feel mentally stable enough for employment, but can’t find work! The stress is...

Islets of Langerhans
Beginning and End

Letting Go of a Romantic Relationship

Dear Allyson,

Awhile ago, I was in a romantic relationship with this girl. Our connection seemed deeper than words can explain. Where we once trusted each other and spoke openly, the relationship ended with us not speaking to one another and parting ways without much communication. We see each other from time to time at parties of mutual friends and I feel the vibrations of unresolved karmic ties. How can I let go of these ties? Should I address them in order to heal them? Could unresolved, lingeri...

Painting Feedback

Hi Allyson,

Please take a look at my latest. I'm happy with the idea, but some of the execution has much to be desired.

I thought a lot about what you recommended. I haven't repainted them yet, but I will. As I experiment I am progressing, but my goal is to be able to add more realism to them (for example the face on the attached picture).

If possible, please let me know your thoughts.

All the best,

How can I have the life I love?

Dear Allyson,

I am lost. I'm an artist: theater, writing, ink on glass and metal. I pretty much fall in love with any art form I come across. I also feel deeply called to heal and teach. None feels whole by itself and I feel off balance if I'm not doing both.
Until I listened to you both in person yesterday and saw what you've created with CoSM and your work, I've never seen the two threads braided so perfectly.

So my question is: How did you find your way to that? More to the point...

Realms of the Unpronounceable

Realms of the Unpronounceable
painting by Allyson Grey
oil on wood panel, 48 x 24 in. plus frame
Secret Writing Spectrum by Allyson Grey

This Side of Sanity


by Paul Bronson
Byron Bay, Australia

this is the story of falling down the rabbit hole.

some people believe in spiritual experience,
and some people believe only in solid facts.
to the grounded folk, the following tale is a decent into madness.
to the mind exploring hippy, it is a matter of discerning
where reality stops and when madness b...

Depression and Anxiety


I have a question for you that I am hoping you may be able assist me with. First, I feel the need to give you a little background.

At 43, I have struggled with addiction and depression/anxiety for most of my life. From a very early age, I felt like I did not belong and have had great difficulty forming meaningful relationships with people. I've had counseling off and on, have taken antidepressants, self medicated, and participated...

Text Page #6 by Allyson Grey
Photo Adaptation by Sir Pak

Portrait by Perry Kroger

Allyson's Day – 40 Year Anniversary of My First Date with Alex, May 31, 1975

May 30th, 1975: Alex appeared at the door of my Cambridge apartment for my end-of-year party accompanied by our Boston Museum School Conceptual Mixed Media professor whom I had been casually dating. In Alex's hand was a half-drunk bottle of Kahlua mixed with a giant dose of LSD. My first of many LSD trips was in 1969. Alex's had postponed that experience until that very night at my house... on my couch.

On May 31st we had a self-revelatory conversation abo...

Perception of the Artist; Perception of the Viewer

When a viewer perceives that secret writing in my work is Paladian, Lemurian, and Atlantian, they are indeed projecting the true meaning of the work: that artists are symbol makers and viewers are meaning makers. The symbols could mean what the viewer wants them to mean OR/AND the symbols could mean what the artist intends them to mean.

Art can be understood by a simple impression, a gut reaction. The viewer can go deeper and learn about the history of the a...

Climate Artivists from Iran

Hello dear Allyson and Alex Grey,

We are a team of friends and artist who are trying to raise climate awareness among people and start to act for change. We are creative, we are musicians, visual artists and very good friends. But the atmosphere here is closed, dark and scary.

We are fans of Alex Grey's master pieces of art and his worldview and the understanding and the peace culture he promotes. We are watching the environmental tragedy and we can't stay quiet and...